Looking for Alaska

         I haven't really read a good novel for a while wherein I would read the whole way through until the end without stopping... And recently, I bought Looking for Alaska and read it in just a day, neglecting the stuff I needed to do for school. Well, it was worth reading it. I really enjoyed it. And you learn a lot of stuff from it too. It has substance... And I really recommend it to everyone.. 


         Here is what I think is one of the most beautiful sayings from the book:


"Those awful things are survivable, because we are as indestructible as we believe ourselves to be. ... We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail."


          I don't know what to feel with that, it's just a whole big blob of a mixture of emotions. Mostly sadness and pain for some reason. Well, deep down, I yearn to feel indivisible again. I'm still young, but I feel like a failure, when I haven't really tried anything with any real conviction. I am lost. Maybe I should be looking for something too, that something that will hold me as a whole being, not in pieces, but as a whole. The problem is, I don't know what to look for. I don't know where to start. I don't know how to begin. I want to be indivisible. I want to find my purpose. "I am greater than the sum of my parts, and I cannot fail." 


"Your future belongs to you if you believe in the beauty of your dreams."