The Key to Everything is Continuity

I haven't been writing in here because first of all, I was busy with school... And second, I have no idea what I should write about.

But to challenge myself... I will do a project so that I will be forced to stick to things that I should be doing like writing here... I don't want this to be just something I just started out but never really did or never really worked on. I wanted this to be something more than that.

The key to everything is continuity and following through... You have to finish what you've started no matter what road block you will meet along the way.. Just keep on moving forward...

So for the mean time.. I will think of a project to keep my blog alive.. And if I finally know what to write about and want to share with you guys, I will do it. -not just plainly doing it, but I will continue it until I finish.

Hope everyone's having an awesome December! :) Happy Holidays! xx

Looking for Alaska

         I haven't really read a good novel for a while wherein I would read the whole way through until the end without stopping... And recently, I bought Looking for Alaska and read it in just a day, neglecting the stuff I needed to do for school. Well, it was worth reading it. I really enjoyed it. And you learn a lot of stuff from it too. It has substance... And I really recommend it to everyone.. 


         Here is what I think is one of the most beautiful sayings from the book:


"Those awful things are survivable, because we are as indestructible as we believe ourselves to be. ... We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they get old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater than the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail."


          I don't know what to feel with that, it's just a whole big blob of a mixture of emotions. Mostly sadness and pain for some reason. Well, deep down, I yearn to feel indivisible again. I'm still young, but I feel like a failure, when I haven't really tried anything with any real conviction. I am lost. Maybe I should be looking for something too, that something that will hold me as a whole being, not in pieces, but as a whole. The problem is, I don't know what to look for. I don't know where to start. I don't know how to begin. I want to be indivisible. I want to find my purpose. "I am greater than the sum of my parts, and I cannot fail." 


"Your future belongs to you if you believe in the beauty of your dreams."

Ukulele - Sir Gregory

         I recently bought a ukulele because for some reason I was yearning to have one. The original plan was to replace my old guitar but I just can't resist the ukulele. I just have to have one. This beauty right here is a Greg Bennet brand and it plays really awesome! And I named my ukelele as Sir Gregory. :)) LOL

       The moment I got home, I just played it right away. I learned the strange new chords of the ukelele, but my hands were dancing perfectly with Sir Gregory. They were just a perfect match. I was playing for hours, that I didn't feel or even notice the skin on the tips of my fingers that I used for making the chords were damaged, that they were peeling off. They weren't even painful. 

      We find moments like this in our lives, where we own them truly because we are in sync with everything that we are doing and feeling, that everything seems to be at peace and at its proper place even just for a while. You own that moment and yours alone- not hard, not easy, but just you.

       I used to play the piano and I immensely enjoyed it. I became very good at it when I was just a kid. I spend hours practicing not to become better but because I was happy playing the piano and that was enough. It was really like my hands had a life of their own, running, dancing, prancing, walking.. But the magic disappeared when my parents expected a lot from me. And people just assumed that I play the piano really well. Playing the piano wasn't fun anymore when I live off to OTHER people's EXPECTATIONS. I did not own any of it. It wasn't me. It was them. So I was just nothing, but a frustrated pianist. 

       Then I found the guitar and the ukulele. I'm not a pro or anything. I just love doing what I do. You don't have to be the best in everything you do. Just love what you're doing because life is too short for you not to enjoy it. 

       Happy living! xx

        

      

        

        

What We Can Learn from Kim Kardashian and Kris Humphries

          We could learn a thing or two from Kim and Kris' wedding.. And no, it's not that kind of love. What I think happened is that Kim rushed things too far. She has loved the IDEA of a "perfect wedding". But a wedding is just a wedding in the end. Too often we focus on the outcome or the result we want because it's like a fairytale or a perfect ending, like being rich, being the best bookseller, being a famous movie star and all that. But that is the END part of the process. You have to love the PROCESS more than the outcome. If you love the outcome more than the process, then how will you get there? 

         People become famous or have great success not because they were born with innate gifts to achieve them but because they have loved the PROCESS in achieving them so much that with that great love and passion they achieve great things. 

         Kim has loved the IDEA of marriage, but she didn't foresee that it requires constant hard work. No matter how different two people are, as long as they are both willing to work things out, then they will last a lifetime.

         I myself, love the idea to become a doctor, but I'm not really sure if I would risk all my efforts and actions to get there. I'm not sure. I don't know. And if I get there, will I love being a doctor? Or do I just merely want the two letter, M.D. written at the end of my name? 

         It's not enough to want something. You have to be sure that you will risk everything to get there and that you will love the "process" of "getting" there. You should love what you're doing and what you should be doing to get to the "END RESULT" that you are dreaming of. All I'm saying is with great love for something and with a great deal of obsession for something (in a good way), you can be limitless, as long as you never give up and keep on holding on, fighting for your "DREAMS".

Procrastination

         Everyone procrastinates at least once in their life.. I believe it's not because we are lazy that we procrastinate but we lack the passion and motivation to do something that we are 'required' or 'forced' to do. So the next time you procrastinate, evaluate your feelings about a certain task and think or associate it to something you really like. Maybe that will create the cure. Happy day of working guys or whatever it is that you wish to finish today! :) 

The Sweetness of Doing Nothing- NOT

         I got the title from the movie "Eat Pray Love", which was an awesome movie by the way. So my life has come to a pause from all those school and all those craziness stress and busy life... Because we're all in a sem break which actually lasts for quite a long time.. But the thing is, when you're so used to being busy all the time.. You actually yearn to do something or else you'd feel useless... And when you're busy, you just don't want to do anything. Quite a paradox. Yes it is, and life as the matter is one big whole giant pie of paradoxes..

         I can't sit still. I just need something to do.. But why? Can't I just sit back and enjoy this silence of not having to do anything? I don't mean I want to go back to school, because heck no, I dont want to! lol.

         Maybe I want go to an adventure that will wake me up.. Maybe I've been sleeping all this time not being aware of my life... And yes in fact, yes, I am not aware of my life. I just let each day pass by like it's just an insignificant page of my life. And I truly want it to mean more than just that, but I don't know how to.  Will reading more books make my life meaningful? Will exercising make it meaningful? Will learning new languages make it meaningful? I mean all those things are ideal and nice but they're just filling the void of not doing anything to being a productive one... But when does anything mean something? Do I feel it? Am I supposed to enjoy it? What is being meaningful? Can doing nothing actually mean something?

        I do not know. These thoughts bother me in the silence.. And really upset me because I can't answer the questions. But even if I can't answer them... people should dwell in them because if you question life more often... you might get your answers... And maybe, just maybe the answers are in your questions...

        Maybe the reason why I just can't enjoy doing nothing as I expected it to be is because when you do nothing, you do not have a sense of purpose nor direction. It's like you're just floating in the middle of the ocean without sails to guide you to one clear direction. Maybe I've been floating all along in the ocean whether I'm busy or doing nothing... I just don't have a clear picture of where I want to go. So no matter what you're doing, if you don't know where you want to go, there will always be a battle inside of you on where to take your raft in the ocean.. You can't really get started with anything because one day you'll be going in one direction then one day you'll be going in another... What direction in your life that can give you so much meaning and purpose that you're willing to paddle all the way there no matter what it takes?

The Wall in my Room

The wall facing my bed has a big poster that I made and it contains nice sayings for me to be reminded of and for me to read every morning when I wake up...

(it's not that pretty but it's the meaning that counts.. lol)

*Freedom is making the right choice when no one is there to stop you.
*Why stop dreaming when you wake up?
*Live the life you imagined.
*We are all faced with great opportunities... brilliantly disguised as impossible situations.
*The greatest mistake you can make in this life is to be continually fearing you will make one.
*Take chances, make mistakes. That's how you grow. Pain nourishes your courage. You have to fail in order to practice being brave.
*Your future belongs to you if you believe in the beauty of your dreams.
*If I have lost confidence in myself, I have the universe against me.
*Take a chance! All ife is a chance. The man who goes farthest is generally the one who is willing to do and dare.
*Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal.

Have a nice day everyone! :)